真情？？？笑话！

很想说就算有七年的友谊垫底，也不要妄想什么患难见真情，那种偶像剧里哭得天花乱坠感人肺腑的剧情也只是博人气的一种手段。这其实不需要多么地演技高超，也只是人前人后换面具罢了，谁都能做到吧！只要面具带得好，日久未必见人心。为什么单纯简单真心地对朋友又那么地难吗？？？为什么一定要一次又一次地摧毁我对你的信任？？？很有成就感吗？？？很快乐吗？？？如果把我当成白痴来耍让你觉得很快乐，我可以很肯定地告诉你这是最后一次了因为你教会了我不要太相信温情和友谊这种和荒谬同等的东西。不能全怪你，我自己也咎由自取，自己认不清现实，也是我自己选择一次又一次地充当笨蛋的角色。信任的确不适合用在你身上，我是不是太晚明白这个道理了？第一次的原谅我可以帮你说成不小心，第二次的原谅被称为人非圣贤，第三次硬说成你不是有意的，你接下来还希望我为你找什么理由和借口？明知道被骗的时候绝对不会是最后一次却盲目地圆谎，相信，期望。这样的心情不会比你处心积虑来得轻松。。。不是第一次被你骗了，早就应该知道迟早会被你骗的，为什么还是会痛，这个痛是多么地不值得却那么无可避免。。。不需要道歉，你可能不知道我对你琅琅上口的那三字已经产生免疫了，我也该睡醒了。。。我最后还想问的一句话：你面具带了那么久不会累的吗？还是已经根深蒂固了？

happy birthday

It is a past tense...
3 yrs contract i follow through...
what else u espect from me ???
rmb ur promise and fullfill it...

Natural Havoc

The recent devastating earthquake that wrecked japan not only serve as a sign of warning but also recall back 2012 prediction & rumour. IS it the day of judgement for everyone arrived ? Trace back the "good" deed done by human 2ward our precious environment, the att triggered by nature reli take a back seat. Nature have their own way to resist ,defence and also rebounce against any compression, human shud noe tis in the beginning instead of after knowning the magnificant power of nature.

I would not express any grief to the hobo and the ppl who r suffering nw. It is nt use to sympathy or feeling sad, it does not hlp the situation at all.all i can do is nth. I have my role and duty by now, i m neither noble enof nor having the ability to contribute my aid to them. ALL i can do is just praying for them, pray for the decision that made by god, pray for the destiny that r not controlled by me . however, i promise once and for all , such akwardness would not persist. I sure have my way to help them, i must have the ability to rescue them. TIS IS MY WORDS.

thanks

today, an unexspected matter occur. That time i reli very worry intertwined wif anxious, so i simply throw tantrum to my kuliah-mate. Luckily they "da ren bu ji xiao ren guo" and willing to understand me and b so considerable, even come and comfort me. Again, thx urs' support and accompanies. ecspecially the one who "xin gan qing yuan" kena marah in order to relieve my pain. reli thx a lot to make me feel so guilty >< I promise this is the first time and also the last time. I will control my temper and wont let my sadness, anger to split out anymore. i will tr my best to confine them. so touching...

lastly, hope a po can get well soon, i willing to sacrifice anything ,as long as u r healthy juz like u can do everything for my happiness... sincere pray...

MUET

MUET result was announced under a very sudden condition. when i having a nice pose on my bed and when sin teng rush quckily to my room, lol everything juz happen in a slit of second and do have any mentaly preparation yet. However it is nt a bad thing either, there were no nervous or jittery fell linger on my day~ Band 4 for the result. and the total marks is 206. altot i m nt tat sastify wif it but i noe tat i had neglect my BI and "freeze" it deep in my memoried for a long time , so am nt eligible to blame it. Maybe it is a blessing in disguise that help to propel me and catapult me to a higher rank. My speaking and listening d result nt bad,juzt the two major portion, (reading and writing) dai sai a lot, each daisai 35 marks == , so pain...

qimagan, recently kena freeze by "summone" =3= berigud u to fell down la =p , sendiri luan luan lai, make the wound worse, reli berigud. Pain till even me oso wan to freeze ==. better fall agn XP . futhermore , no ppl asking whether u die edi anot =3= dun everytime reply " haven die, still alive" .hao xiao ma ?? nw recover le rite, got mood to play le right, but ps ho, it is my turn to freeze u =3=

lastly happy bday to nao zhong!!!

sweet

wheee~~~ having gud mood recently. hope such "happiness" would persist XD ...first time for me to record down, so wish that my six sense would visualise everything,fortune would sideline me and destiny wont playing havoc wif me ~~~~~~
I appreciate and cherish all the silent testimonials between us and hopefully all these would not b memories only. I m touched that there is a link between ur action and my welfare.Juz i m still confused that whether i m the sole and only one who have this priviledge? I start to doubt my observation.whethr i m convincing myself or u edi proven everything to me. juz i too nub to sense it ><
lastly, hope u get well soon, and if there is a "IF" i will accept it ! =D

swinging mood

recently , i was overwhelmed wif all sort of challenges.PSPM, koko marks,muet, ic lost , quiz marks ....for a matrix student, four flat is nt a accessory bt a neccessory . if u get four flat, nobody will cheer for u bt if u cant get it u r doom in ur future...the paramount agony is tat matrix is nt as easy my previous notion la , altot nt as hard as STPM bt still have it certain standard which do not permit others to flout it...i m scared , wat if i didnt get four flat ? wat if i cant get the course i wan ? so many uncertainties drive me up the wall...or mayb there is a big fluctuation in my hormonal secretion which coz my mood swinging.. suddenly i get myself over the moon bt the next second i could found myself lost in my own selected pathway... my friends said that i m euphoria == , i m not pointing that matrix life is hard or pressure, sebaliknya it is fun and full wif laughter and i relish my life a lot...bt recently my response got "lag" a bit , it seem tat the problem associate wif my CNS and PNS ...bt anyway , i would lyk to thx all my frenz , no matter dato or matrix or sunway, u all giv me a shot in my arm and giv me the strength to savour any obstacle ^^