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我又要回去了，才刚说不习惯家里的生活，转眼又要离开了，真的会感到郁闷。。。
刚才回去sunway 见了那一帮朋友，真有一番“久违”的感觉，也终于有机会好好地打场球。那两个kampunG就免提了，sherlin期待我们下次的见面！bbq ya! if can then spent a nite wif u >< ( lol ,so shy) , jyjy for ur test, n b strong to face the two kampung guy! ><
这次的假期什么都没有做到，terrarium还没种，GIMP 连下载都没有，tutorial paper 直接留在kms 没带回来。。。我这次回去真的要好好面壁思过，不能再在kuliah 吹水睡觉玩游戏了，我要走认真路线！！！（虽然不太可能〉<) *laylay,臭老大，kutu佬，变态佬，刘力扬不要再跟我讲话了啦！！！>< 我都快跟不上了，我不想pspm死惨惨啦。。。这次回去姓马的又puasa，食堂没有开，更本就是在间接谋杀精英>< , 没关系，你不开？我自己在房间煮，blackout or kebakaran dun blame me =3=
在可悲的matric里还好有你们带给我欢乐和疯狂的机会><不然我肯定闷死。。。还有阿不要每天讲什么看我样子以为我是文静型的然后认识了才知错的，拜托你们也是好不好！>< 特别感谢臭老大（先不要跟你算koko的帐）,我知道你帮我这么多我还每天作弄你很过分，不过我就是不习惯跟好朋友“和平共处”嘛，很别扭咧，而且你也不要做梦我会开口称赞你，除非天降红雨>< 不过其实每一次我都很感谢你，只是不说罢了>< 还有大屁股也是，谢谢你的烧肉，烧鸭，烧鸡饭>< laylay谢谢你每天在kuliah陪我玩,你真是个很好的朋友>< 谢谢你们每次都“有求必应”（我会帮你们修建神庙的）XD ，无论如何都没有拒绝过我，我真的太爱你们了！我祝你们“前程似锦”“心想事成”“万事如意”“新年快乐”><

MIXED...

It is quite hard for me to express my feeling in words, it is grey but mixed with some anticipating compounded with some happiness adding with some upset hues and a spasm of sullen feeling(zi hern's quote=3=),all in all it is very complicated...

first of all, i hope that Pn. Vanaja can accept the offer which promote her to b matrix lecturer, got familiar teacher in KMS more or less serve as a remedy n therapy for mt homesick,summore an acquaintence come on handy one day, so i deeply wish that pn vanaja dun tolak the offer...

second, i m a bit bueh song wif the ppl who sum up the mark of my math quiz paper...( nt zi wei la ), it is reli omg , 100% full score d math quiz paper dunno which sakai anyhow sum up wrongly and become 60/100, kns la , plus n minus oso dunno summroe dare to mark my math paper =3= , i wan to find james wong for justice, bt james wong edi leave us n go back kuala pilah , faint =='' nw i only can count on my new tutor teacher to return back my "qing bai".

third, i heard that gt a new teaches coming to KMS, n we r going to face the risk of spilting tutor class, omg omg omg , if split the class that mean i have to seperate wif lao da ,tat mean no other chinese exist in my class, tat mean no ppl speak chinese wif me, then my life will bcome dull n meaning less, T.T i dun wan!~~~~~

fouth, UPS coming soon n my MUET speaking test will b on Mon, a bit nervous n jittery bt i believe that i can conquer them calmly n confidently, god bless me.After MID-SEM exam then i can have a thrilling holiday at jb,wohoooo!~~~~

lastly, i hope that all my friends ,family n relatives can happy owes, wish everyone "xin xiang shi cheng" "gong xi fa cai"

lastly, i wish every

my very first IT CLASS

i admire my courage a lot, this is the blog that i type secretly during my IT class. HAHA,my teacher is nw snoring loudly so he cant discover my clandestine affair >< actually i have to finish the task that given by my teacher before i can on9, bt since i m so clever,idecide jus copy n paste from my frenz d pendrive... XD by then i wonder whether i will fail my IT paper anot, so embarassing ><

i got one gud news to share wif everyone ,i successfully change my chinese grade from B+ to A-, altot it is nt much diff from my original slip n summore this appeal waste my parent's RM50 bt at least can put the shame aside >< at least i m nt same "standard" wif ks , we r nt "gong mian zhi" anymore le ks,dun feel too sad ,"our relationship no more existing" ---this sentences is sadpted from my sole n only n perfect male chinese classmate which r oso vivi's crush ><

last b t nt least mr.king, i m nt letting u down, at least i gt A- isit ?

besides i oso discover that matrix is nt as easy as i think, it dispel watever previousd notion that i had toward matrix.i shud nt quick to judge the lvl of matrix ,i shud observe more... last week i gt discuss some part of bio-knowledge wif ks n we discoverd that a-lvl's bio is the way too basic n too they r too pampered n finally ks admitted that he is kampung guy ><

next 9th of jun is my matrix frenz d bday , i tend to let her have a "unforgetable" bday...haiz, most of my matrix friends "crowned" me as naughty,playful, "ren xiao gui da" summore... bt i dun care >< as long as i happy then enof...haha i owes try my best to trick them down,wakaka, so fun, matrix life is reli nt as terrible as wat i had been told before,wohooooo!!!

btw, a-lvl march intake, urs exam, is around the corner isit ??? hope u guy buck-up and can pass the exam wif flying colour, god bless u all, gambateh!!!^^

pre-matrix

进matrix前的最后一篇blog。。。
mummy你不用担心，既然我决定了，就不会三心两意，既然我答应了你，就不会出尔反尔，就算那里只剩下我一个人，就算那里比监牢还监牢，我也不会反悔，只希望你不要因为我点头去matrix你才对我这么好。不必担心我是否会适应，船到桥头自然，我没有与众不同，也不是千金小姐，不需要差别待遇，别人可以，我也可以

我对a-lvl已经没有什么幢景了，除了她，那里的人，事，物已经无法再让我有一丝的牵挂或不舍了~ 不该有不忍，不该有犹豫，不该有牵挂，不该有绝对的相信，不该被影响，不该有怯怯，这是宇宙的生存原则，你明白吗？

matric or a-lvl?

The JPA announcement day is around the corner and it is approaching, it is high time for everyone to make a decision of their life.I m not the exception either, hestitation had gripped me. Overwhelming wif all sort of perspective and a fabulous range of views, i m fraught with vexation conjuncted with jiterry. Altot my mum "empowered" me to set the stage for my future bt i noe that my mum hope that i can choose matrix instead of A-lvl. She tries her best to find all kind of matrix information ( better known as the advantages of matrix) and even phone to her peers for futher confirmation. All this reaction tell-tale about her enthusiam toward matrix and her determination in order to convince me to go matrix. As a daughter who practice filial piety >< , of coz i cant let her distraught with disappointment. Till now,what else i can say n wat else i can do,NUS ,NTU,SAT,all seem to b fictitous to me , an illusioin that will b waned with time after i enrol to matrix, grief run riot in me, bt i can only smile to myself reluctantly and find thousand of self-console pretexts to supress the grievance. Quality of A-lvl compare wif matrix sure is matrix take a back seat and it is thrown into the shadow,bt if is measure from all other aspect such as $$ ,it is much more worthy....the only scar that left is that i have to leave all my A-lvl frenz which are funny and adorable , ecspecialy sherlin...she had summoned up her courage to take a-lvl course alone without the accompany of her previous old frenz n destiny play trick wif her again...after,she acknowledge me and get along superbly wif me bt nw i m going to matrix,she lose her dearest frenz that she ever care and love agn T.T srry sherlin if i reli go matrix ~

caught in bind

I'm facing a dilemma now which had strained my brain and racked my spirit in order to find a way. Apart from choosing the "right" place to study, i m nw confused n brood over hw many and wat sub shud i choose for my a-lvl? IT is very critical since each sub has a stake in my future, either bio or fz play an important role, i m not bear enof to giv up anyone.However,some exhort me to take 5 sub bt i know tat once i have taken up 5 sub i wont have much leisure time left coz it call for lot effort to achieve 5A in a-lvl. I m compelled to make a decision, no more shilly-shally ,no more hesitation that can ruin my future. I have leave no stone unturned to solve my predicament bt all in all i still have to make decision,a right decision tat i never regret abt it.i have been exposing to all these issues for 3 month. nw,the main question is, m i nearer finding an effective solution than where i was when i first sensitised to the prob??? i did nt grow out of these prob either ==

my cavalier atitude toward sanctity of life is the main reason for y i m owes a failure.LIFE is not movie that being shown in cinema to propagate or ingrain MORAL value or etiquette.Instead,life is a eternal & endless war in which human r not eligible to put a stop on it. the consequence or the conclusion of life is not obvious and manifest and even out of control human control. HUMAN being who owes pride themselves as the dictator of world will never perceive hw trivial they are in front of LIFE. the war of life will last forever as long as human's greed,anger and selfness exist.HUMAN are jeopardising themselve and prepare to succumb to therid own scandal and stigma. so......before the whole world perish...i hope tat i can graduate fron NUS first XDDDD

omg

I m confusing and "perplexing"(learnt from zi hern's blog)too while comtemplating and brood over my predicaments...
MY future path,my career route all depend on my present choices, i mus think twice and my decision shud encompass all factors under the sun.I have no much time leaving nw i cant b shilly-shally and hesitation shud not exist in my mind nw, i mus seize the right occasions and opportunities in front of me.ANY veils tat preventing me from making right decision shud b fall away nw,i shud dispel and disperse all the notion that forbiding me to make correct choice...

Reality may b cruel,grim,relentless,merciless,brutal and heinous,things may not turn out as hope,ur wishes were owes b shattered once the truth r revealed. this is the inexorable n indisputable fact that no one could escape.being stiffled n overwhelmed by too many choices is not a gud matter either...U may b dragged into moment of indecision,jus lyk the circumstance that i m facing nw.

at first,fighting for the JPA which so many competitors yearn for,aspire to,compete for,vying to,eyeing to,crave for,thirst for ,desire for ,pine after is a tough task for me.even if i get it, i oso will b black and blue ><(so i temporary relue out and sideline this posibility first)

nex issue which come under spotlight is my recent tends to apply for nanyang poly which is located at sg. phase out the competitors who inflict lot challenges for me,there r so many courses to consider over,==,agn problems arise...purportedly,green tech and clean energy management r the most sought-after career in the future prospect due to the depletion of petroleum and the pollution plagueing over our environments which can lead to the perish of this world (jus lyk the movie of 2012),so,there mus b holistic approach to eliminate POLLUTION by developing eco-friendly energy in order to save our earth from degenerating and deteriorating.GOV:we have all this while been neglecting our environment so it is time for us to unite our comitment to mend this mistakes (actually it is jus my perception,gov didnt say it ><)

(to b continued)